Bloody hell
Tonight it's just dawned on me !!
I have 2 son's & a husband ... So 3 !!!!
That's 3 boys ,who will become men ,one allready showing the sign's of man-ness
(that's my made up word).
So ,I bring up ,teach,love,provide & put my life into bringing up my boys .
They are going to leave ME though for some girl & never look back ..... I'll be the dreaded " mother in law" !!!!
Having son's is such a different life path to having daughters - admitidly both bring problems & troubles along the way ....
Only today I realise I can not & should not put my life & soul into my children to such a degree as they are all I have & all I am.
I can't
They don't belong to me ...
I do my best
They take that with them & become the man they are going to be .
I'll do so many things that are "Wrong"
I'll f*ck up along the way !
I'll look back & regret decisions I made !
I will never stop worrying about them.
I will always love them too much .
I will always try to look after them (3 or 33)
You tell me, how are you going to feel when your boys swap you for a girl/woman/fiancé /wife ??????
It's a swap
It will happen one day
It's gonna 'GOD DAM HURT'
"OUCH"
And that's excluding what is yet to come with the eldest (my hubby)
If you hadn't allready figured
I WORRY ,A LOT
-posted by Jk
Saturday, 15 October 2011
Friday, 16 September 2011
The misunderstood
People who suffer from,nervousness & anxiety,are people of fine sensibilitys,of delicate regard for honour,endowed with a feeling if duty & obligation,their nerves have tricked & misled them.
-posted by Jk
-posted by Jk
Wednesday, 13 April 2011
Before I kick the bucket
A friend pointed out to me that I should make a list of things I want to do/achieve before I kick the bucket. So here is my list,in no spesific order,I'll just randomly write it & blog when I've done/achieved any-(if I'm still here)
1)sort out my physical health.
2)achieve mental stability (?)
3)Go back to college
4)Get nvq level 2 in beauty Therapy.
5)Do numerous nail tec courses.
6)Set up nails & beauty,within or alongside the hair salon.
7)have a fancy dress party.
8)raise money for the British heart Foundation.
9)join a yoga class
10)try zumba.
11)loose at least 1 & half stone.
12)Go to London for a weekend .
13)take my mum on a pamper weekend.
14)take dance lessons.
15)Swim with dolphins .
16)eat at one of marco pier White resturantes.
17)Eat oysters & drink cristal champaign.
18)Go to the theatre.
19)Holiday in Florida ,Disney Land,as a family.
20)Go on a cruise.
Okay,that will do to be going on with,before I kick the bucket X
-posted by Jk
1)sort out my physical health.
2)achieve mental stability (?)
3)Go back to college
4)Get nvq level 2 in beauty Therapy.
5)Do numerous nail tec courses.
6)Set up nails & beauty,within or alongside the hair salon.
7)have a fancy dress party.
8)raise money for the British heart Foundation.
9)join a yoga class
10)try zumba.
11)loose at least 1 & half stone.
12)Go to London for a weekend .
13)take my mum on a pamper weekend.
14)take dance lessons.
15)Swim with dolphins .
16)eat at one of marco pier White resturantes.
17)Eat oysters & drink cristal champaign.
18)Go to the theatre.
19)Holiday in Florida ,Disney Land,as a family.
20)Go on a cruise.
Okay,that will do to be going on with,before I kick the bucket X
-posted by Jk
I've been 'Tagged',find out more about me.
One of my Twitter friends,@123andbreathe has tagged me into the Q&A meme.
The questions below are usually the format the guardian use when interviewing celebs,as you are about to find out,I am far from a celeb!!!.
Q1)Which living person do you most admire,and why?
A)This is a tricky one as there are a few people in my life I admire for different reasons,overall I'd have to say my dad.He is the most incredibly honest,genuine,selfless person I've ever known & I look up to him & admire everything he is.
Q2)What is your most embarrasing moment?
A)My god,I've had a hell of a lot of embarrasing moments,I have them on a weekly basis!!. One of them has to be when I was cutting a clients hair & accidently cut through the fine gold chain she was wearing,I was young & paniked & with this decided not to say a word about it to her & put it in the bin(I know shameful), the same day the client came into the salon & asked me & the other girls if we'd seen her necklace,she thought it may have come off in the salon?....
To my absolute horror the Saturday girl announced,"Yea I found a necklace when I was emptying the bin" at this point I excused myself to go on my dinner hour.ohh the shame,that poor woman!!
Q3)When were you the happiest?
A)I was at my happiest when I was working in my first salon for a very good friend,I had some wonderful friends & had an amazing few years,age 16 to 20,my happiest years!!
Q4)Aside from property,what is the most expensive thing you have ever bought?
A)Hmm,I've had expensive things bought for me,the most expensive thing I've gone out & bought myself would be..ey this is hard,I have put money into my business,that's the most I ever spent,but bought is a hard one because I tend not to spend a lot on myself,unless prompted by my husband.... I know,I bought myself a Babour wax coat last winter,which cost £150 ish.
Q5)What is your most treasured possession?
A)My wedding band & engagment ring & pandora charm bracelet,oh & my watch/am I allowed 3 ??
Q6)Where would you like to live?
A)I have always lived in the north & I love it,I adore the ribble valley,I'm happy here ,would be perfect if we had a second home in France for the summer.
Q7)what's your favourite smell
A)Agent Provocateur Maitresse.
Q8)Who would play you I'm the film of your life?
A)No matter how long I think about this question,I can't come up with an answer. I'm not that clued up on celebs,can think of who I like actress wise,but can't think of a person to play me
#failonthisone
Q9)What is your favourite book?
A)I love Reading & have read so so many good books,I do not have just one favourite so I'll pick one of my top 5 favourite books
Which is,'Wild Swans'by Jung Chang.
Q10)What is your most UN-appealing habit?
A)Repeating myself (so I'm told)
Repeating myself ?'!! Apparently
Q11)What would your fancy dress costume of choice be?
A)Well I've never been to a fancy dress party,if I were ever to go to one I would want to go as Marylin Monroe.
There were 25 questions but the rest have vanished???
-posted by Jk
The questions below are usually the format the guardian use when interviewing celebs,as you are about to find out,I am far from a celeb!!!.
Q1)Which living person do you most admire,and why?
A)This is a tricky one as there are a few people in my life I admire for different reasons,overall I'd have to say my dad.He is the most incredibly honest,genuine,selfless person I've ever known & I look up to him & admire everything he is.
Q2)What is your most embarrasing moment?
A)My god,I've had a hell of a lot of embarrasing moments,I have them on a weekly basis!!. One of them has to be when I was cutting a clients hair & accidently cut through the fine gold chain she was wearing,I was young & paniked & with this decided not to say a word about it to her & put it in the bin(I know shameful), the same day the client came into the salon & asked me & the other girls if we'd seen her necklace,she thought it may have come off in the salon?....
To my absolute horror the Saturday girl announced,"Yea I found a necklace when I was emptying the bin" at this point I excused myself to go on my dinner hour.ohh the shame,that poor woman!!
Q3)When were you the happiest?
A)I was at my happiest when I was working in my first salon for a very good friend,I had some wonderful friends & had an amazing few years,age 16 to 20,my happiest years!!
Q4)Aside from property,what is the most expensive thing you have ever bought?
A)Hmm,I've had expensive things bought for me,the most expensive thing I've gone out & bought myself would be..ey this is hard,I have put money into my business,that's the most I ever spent,but bought is a hard one because I tend not to spend a lot on myself,unless prompted by my husband.... I know,I bought myself a Babour wax coat last winter,which cost £150 ish.
Q5)What is your most treasured possession?
A)My wedding band & engagment ring & pandora charm bracelet,oh & my watch/am I allowed 3 ??
Q6)Where would you like to live?
A)I have always lived in the north & I love it,I adore the ribble valley,I'm happy here ,would be perfect if we had a second home in France for the summer.
Q7)what's your favourite smell
A)Agent Provocateur Maitresse.
Q8)Who would play you I'm the film of your life?
A)No matter how long I think about this question,I can't come up with an answer. I'm not that clued up on celebs,can think of who I like actress wise,but can't think of a person to play me
#failonthisone
Q9)What is your favourite book?
A)I love Reading & have read so so many good books,I do not have just one favourite so I'll pick one of my top 5 favourite books
Which is,'Wild Swans'by Jung Chang.
Q10)What is your most UN-appealing habit?
A)Repeating myself (so I'm told)
Repeating myself ?'!! Apparently
Q11)What would your fancy dress costume of choice be?
A)Well I've never been to a fancy dress party,if I were ever to go to one I would want to go as Marylin Monroe.
There were 25 questions but the rest have vanished???
-posted by Jk
Thursday, 7 April 2011
Mothers day / 2011
These pictures are of my baby boys,at one day old.
The first photo is my Oliver
The second is my Theo
They are so very precious to me,they are the best things that have ever happened in my life,I am blessed to have my boys,truly blessed.
I can remember both my pregnancies & births like they were only yesterday,I can recall every detail & can feel every emotion,it's hard to believe that my boys are now,10 & 3 years old.
I know everyone says this but it is so very true,"they grow up so fast".
Wednesday, 23 February 2011
Sods bloody law!!.
Sods law has taken up permenant residence in my life.
I've only realised this recently,after looking back through my life!!
Yep sod has always been here & still is,I'm sure Many people have also had "sod" creep into their life,I do think he picks his victims though & really puts a lot of effort into some!,me being one,easy target maybe?
Anyway sod -" sod's law" has his permenent fixture in my life
and I've come to accept him,in fact I "Expect him" ,a lot of the time I actually sit & wait for his havoc to appear,by my age & experience I know he's coming.
He is most deffinatley a MAN,I have no proof but trust me,he's a MAN!!.
I'll give some examples(these are just a few out of many)
Of this wan*er Sod(whot IS A MAN)
ok here are just a few examples only over the last few years (if I listed all he's done it would be never ending!)
Randomly ......
1)today I had to go & do some bits & bobs for moving house in the next few days,basic stuff ,post office to re_ direct post,council offices to sort out council tax & inform them of new adress,etc,etc.
first off it's pouring down with rain so I grab my rain coat & off I go,first stop post office,I park up in a small space & I'm doing well ,(for me),I'm satisfied even though my bumper is kind of in the road,I turn off my engine & a van comes down the road ,cars parked both sides which I'm totally unawear of ,untill I get out of my car to the abuse of the (MAN) van driver!9.45am,pissing down with rain,I get out of **slightly** bad parking to ...
"oyyy how the F you think I'm goin to get through here you silly bitch",he could have got through if the other car coming the opposite way had not gone at the same time as him,but in his eyes it was my fault. So I was not in a " oh I'm so sorry silly me mood"
I got out told him to watch his language & deal with it & slipped in wanker as I walked into post office.
All I want to do is re direct my post & I've brought along all the relevant documents it says,I que up for 20 mins & hand it all in & before the woman says anything I already know Sod is here!!!
" sorry mrs Palmer we need 2 different utility bills in both names"," I'm afraid we can't process this without 2 different utility bills". Even though I've digged out both pasports & my driving licence & a utility bill,even though the woman knows me & I've qued up for ever I need 1 more utility bill!!!!!!!!!
I storm out,I drop all the paper work etc,so it's all wet through!!
I go back to my car & find my wing mirror on the road,"Sod is here & working well today"!!,it's only 10am!!
pick up wing mirror & drive off into town,park on car park & pay for 1 hour,I've only got to go to the bank & council offices.
I get to bank ,it's closed ,Wednesday half day closing,opens at 1pm,it's 1030am.
Next stop council offices to tell them new adress & pay off existing council tax.
que!!!!!!!!!
hand my form in which by now is sodden & tell her what I want to do,pay up & give new adress details,'simple'?
"When do you move mrs Palmer"?, in 2 days I say!!!
"sorry we can't process it untill you ate actually moved"
I ask why?
" It is just the way our records work I'm afraid,sorry"
I don't swear I just say "FINE"
bank not open I go to Look at bedding in shop just next to car park,'Wey Hey,they actually have super king size fitted sheets & duvets,so I get what I need & more &.I'm pleased I've finally got what I've been looking for.
hobble with my bags in the rain to my car ,shove it all in the boot & get in my car,my freshly blow dried hair is now a frizz,my skin looks bad & I feel sick,im going to leave the bank till tomorrow,
Just before I drive off I see the fecking yellow ticket in my window,20 min over my time!!!
"sod is having a right laugh"
OK cry & stress,then decide to go to have an early lunch in the cafe just over the road,pay & display again put stupid god damm ticket in glove compartment.
Food will cheer me up!!.
I walk in to cafe,head down into the back bit of the cafe,so bloody hungry even though it's not yet dinner time I order soup & a paninie. Then I will have a cake,no one knows me in here so it doesn't matter!!
SOD,SOD,SOD
"The ultimate SODS LAW day"
My ex walks into this stupid cafe,full of old folk,just would not happen!!,but sod was on me & it did happen.My soup & paninie arrived as he & his new piece sat down .
Had a taste of soup,whilst trying to look busy on my phone & took out pad and pen,to look busy,quick bite of paninie,pass on the cake & go to pay,thinking how big my arse looks in the jeans I'm wearing & my hair is all frizzy,REALLY SODS LAW.
This is pretty much a normal day for me at the moment,sod is with me a lot recently,wish he'd move on,I'm sure I've had my fair share of him .... SOD OFF!!!!!!!
-posted by Jk
I've only realised this recently,after looking back through my life!!
Yep sod has always been here & still is,I'm sure Many people have also had "sod" creep into their life,I do think he picks his victims though & really puts a lot of effort into some!,me being one,easy target maybe?
Anyway sod -" sod's law" has his permenent fixture in my life
and I've come to accept him,in fact I "Expect him" ,a lot of the time I actually sit & wait for his havoc to appear,by my age & experience I know he's coming.
He is most deffinatley a MAN,I have no proof but trust me,he's a MAN!!.
I'll give some examples(these are just a few out of many)
Of this wan*er Sod(whot IS A MAN)
ok here are just a few examples only over the last few years (if I listed all he's done it would be never ending!)
Randomly ......
1)today I had to go & do some bits & bobs for moving house in the next few days,basic stuff ,post office to re_ direct post,council offices to sort out council tax & inform them of new adress,etc,etc.
first off it's pouring down with rain so I grab my rain coat & off I go,first stop post office,I park up in a small space & I'm doing well ,(for me),I'm satisfied even though my bumper is kind of in the road,I turn off my engine & a van comes down the road ,cars parked both sides which I'm totally unawear of ,untill I get out of my car to the abuse of the (MAN) van driver!9.45am,pissing down with rain,I get out of **slightly** bad parking to ...
"oyyy how the F you think I'm goin to get through here you silly bitch",he could have got through if the other car coming the opposite way had not gone at the same time as him,but in his eyes it was my fault. So I was not in a " oh I'm so sorry silly me mood"
I got out told him to watch his language & deal with it & slipped in wanker as I walked into post office.
All I want to do is re direct my post & I've brought along all the relevant documents it says,I que up for 20 mins & hand it all in & before the woman says anything I already know Sod is here!!!
" sorry mrs Palmer we need 2 different utility bills in both names"," I'm afraid we can't process this without 2 different utility bills". Even though I've digged out both pasports & my driving licence & a utility bill,even though the woman knows me & I've qued up for ever I need 1 more utility bill!!!!!!!!!
I storm out,I drop all the paper work etc,so it's all wet through!!
I go back to my car & find my wing mirror on the road,"Sod is here & working well today"!!,it's only 10am!!
pick up wing mirror & drive off into town,park on car park & pay for 1 hour,I've only got to go to the bank & council offices.
I get to bank ,it's closed ,Wednesday half day closing,opens at 1pm,it's 1030am.
Next stop council offices to tell them new adress & pay off existing council tax.
que!!!!!!!!!
hand my form in which by now is sodden & tell her what I want to do,pay up & give new adress details,'simple'?
"When do you move mrs Palmer"?, in 2 days I say!!!
"sorry we can't process it untill you ate actually moved"
I ask why?
" It is just the way our records work I'm afraid,sorry"
I don't swear I just say "FINE"
bank not open I go to Look at bedding in shop just next to car park,'Wey Hey,they actually have super king size fitted sheets & duvets,so I get what I need & more &.I'm pleased I've finally got what I've been looking for.
hobble with my bags in the rain to my car ,shove it all in the boot & get in my car,my freshly blow dried hair is now a frizz,my skin looks bad & I feel sick,im going to leave the bank till tomorrow,
Just before I drive off I see the fecking yellow ticket in my window,20 min over my time!!!
"sod is having a right laugh"
OK cry & stress,then decide to go to have an early lunch in the cafe just over the road,pay & display again put stupid god damm ticket in glove compartment.
Food will cheer me up!!.
I walk in to cafe,head down into the back bit of the cafe,so bloody hungry even though it's not yet dinner time I order soup & a paninie. Then I will have a cake,no one knows me in here so it doesn't matter!!
SOD,SOD,SOD
"The ultimate SODS LAW day"
My ex walks into this stupid cafe,full of old folk,just would not happen!!,but sod was on me & it did happen.My soup & paninie arrived as he & his new piece sat down .
Had a taste of soup,whilst trying to look busy on my phone & took out pad and pen,to look busy,quick bite of paninie,pass on the cake & go to pay,thinking how big my arse looks in the jeans I'm wearing & my hair is all frizzy,REALLY SODS LAW.
This is pretty much a normal day for me at the moment,sod is with me a lot recently,wish he'd move on,I'm sure I've had my fair share of him .... SOD OFF!!!!!!!
-posted by Jk
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